The fuck is this?
My name is Miles, I'm 17, and this is my burrow.

I like to study and to stare out the window, usually I'm listening to loud music while doing both. MY ACCOUNT Welcome to my corner of the internet where I hide from the world. Here are some updates
11-25-25

Hello world! I'm gonna get dark for a minute. I have a form of OCD that causes me to pick at my arms. It might not sound that bad, but its particularly bad right now and my arms are all swollen and bleeding! IN OTHER NEWS college essays are hard to write, hands are hard to draw, leb reports are hard to finish, jeans are hard to break in, knowing the right thing to say is hard, talking to new friends is hard. "Read books. Care about things. Get excited. Try not to be too down on yourself. Enjoy the ever present game of knowing." - Hank Green

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11-23-25

Hello from my burrow. I did start reading Parable of the Sower and I'm liking it so far, very gruesome. I spent an abhorrent amount of money on Dodie tickets this week. I think it will be worth it though. In other news, I've been working on college applications but I'm so stuck in my own head about the whole thing. Writing usually comes easy to me, but I'm a perfectionist.

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11-16-25

HELLO..... This week a family friend passed away. It's been hard to deal when the house feels heavy with grief. In other news, I'm still feeling lonely. I have been spending the weekend trying to own the very last spot I need on the map in Skate 2007. Its "Bomb the Bank" and OH MY LORD its so difficult. I don't know what I'm doing wrong, and there's only like two tutorials online so its trial and error for now. I love how the weather is getting colder now. My friends and I took a hike up a local trail and played guitar at sunset. 1000/10 recommend. My friend and I also went to test how far his radio transmitter reaches, so we drove around to our random friends' houses to use their outlets with a small radio we had. Turns out the transmitter can reach pretty far!


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11-9-25

NO GREETING TODAY FUCK YOU. I added some buttons to the left, I hope they are COOL!!!! Most of them don't link to anything but the first one links to my neocities profile so you can find your way back! or to my acct if you came from somewhere else.... I have work I need to be doing rn but I'm not doing it because I don't even know why. I'm going to start reading Parable of the Sower by Octavia E. Butler and I hope updating about it on here will keep my accountable so stay tuned for that. Alr... catch you on the flip.

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11-8-25

Hey! My friend bought a radio transmitter and I got my radio antenna to work finally so I've been jamming to his music lol. If anyone I know IRL is reading this, tune into FM 88.00 bc he's playing bangers! Well, don't tell him this but some of it is too, like, whiney for my taste. (Still love you bro) Today I did my FAFSA application, but now I'm stressing over the writing supplements bc time is running out and they are not polished yet or even completely done :/ In other news, Neocities is working on my computer again! And, I got my DS charger back from my brother so I can finally charge my 3DS ;-; Not that anyone cares, but lately I've been feeling so unfunny and lame and socially inept. I wish I could just act like a normal person but NOPE!!! Please leave a comment on my neocities profile if anyone is reading this,,, OH HE'S PLAYING BLACK FLAG NOW okay its getting a little better.....

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11-1-25

Heyo. I was meaning to update this earlier but neocities ain't working on my laptop so I'm literally doing this on my phone rn. HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! I had a good Halloween with my friends, I like getting out of the house sometimes. Can I be fr for a min? I'm so sick of labels. Like why debate over if something is Krautrock over "experimental German post-pre wave musique concrete" like if I like it just let me listen to it?? Like why can't people be bi-curious anymore? Why I gotta be so definitive abt it yk? I'm me bro let me be me. Tbh, it makes me sad when I open my phone and the only notifications I have are from Gmail and, like, Netflix. That feels shallow but idec anymore. Some people told me that I come off as mean and that they think I'm mad at them or don't like them which makes me feel bad bc like I'm literally just a guy. Like I don't try to be mean but that's just how I come off ig. Well,,, that's it for now I guess.

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10-21-25

Hello internet. Nothing is new. Well, I performed with my band at my school. My band and I did great, but the solo act I did was honestly kinda ass. I need to study more for the Academic Decathlon bc I haven't locked it. Still working on college apps, wish it felt more like autumn, still being loud and annoying see yall later.

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10-8-25

I know its been forever. For some reason I assumed that I would be able to update this place during school, but of course Neocities is blocked on my school's WiFi so here we are. Not a lot has been going on, I don't feel very motivated to do any schoolwork which sucks because I need to lock in. I've been working on college applications, so I guess thats a step in the right direction. Its strange writing essays and stuff. It feels like no matter how well I write or how hard I work I'm so nervous that its not good enough. I feel like I have so many things to say that can't fit in 650 words. The weather is just starting to turn cooler here in California. I need it to be cold NOW! Wind makes me feel alive, makes me feel like me. In other news, I've been reading Frankenstein for my AP Lit class, and its so poignant. I think its interesting how someone from so long ago can capture the way I feel now so accurately. Chapter 9 in particular really stuck with me- I would have cried if I wasn't in class. Did you know that I am an akward mess? I feel like 90% of the time I'm a really interesting person with talents and a tired attitude- but when it comes time to interact with people all of that goes out the window. I laugh too loud, make dumb jokes, I'm mean when I don't mean to be. I don't know how to be a normal person.

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9-6-25

I have no excuse for being gone for so long but... I'M BACK! Lately I've learned that I look at people weird (apparently) I have 3 tests on Monday and it's literally like the third week of school so like whats up with that? Not much is new, I don't study as much as I should. I'm in the process of fixing up all of the images on this site but they looks worse now so just hold your horses.

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8-15-25

First (sorta) week of school DONE! I am officially free from the shackles of AP Spanish because I transfered out (praise be). I don't like soda but in celebration I had an ice cold glass of sugar free cherry Pepsi. I felt connected to Mike Muir in that one Suicidal Tendencies song. I make a fool out of myself every waking moment I exist. If you're reading this, I'm sorry for being so LAME!!!!!!!!

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8-13-25

Why the FUCK did I sign up for AP Spanish? literally what possesed me I don't know. If I stop updating it very well may be because I killed myself due to this class. If you can't tell, today was the first day of my senior year. All of my classes seem fine so far apart from AP Spanish, but its 1st period so at least I get it out of the way first thing. I'm already tired. It's too hot outside.

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8-10-25

Yesterday I went to my epic friend Anika's BIRTHDAY BASH. It was nice to hang out with some of my friends before school starts. (friends meaning like two people) I always relish being able to eat at my filipino friends' houses because I get to eat filipino food that I don't get at my extremely white home. Towards the end of the party I found myself having a better time because my friend started talking to me about some of my writing, but then we gathered a crowd and I got overwhelmed. I much prefer talking in smaller groups rather than larger ones when it comes to personal things like that. Afterward two of my friends and I went to see Weapons at the last showing around midnight. I was a lot more scared than I'd like to admit. I wish I were better at interpreting themes and messages, but I enjoy listening to other, more educated on the matter, people talk about films. I'm a fan of horror, but since I have anxiety I try to dose things like jumpscares infrequently. I'd much rather read about cryptozoology or some Lovecraft. I heart Twisted Teas btw, I wanted like three more of these. I like the way they make my chest feel.


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8-6-25

CALCULUS IS OVER FOREVER NOW. Glad to announce order is set back into the world because I finished my calc final today. I know I got like three questions wrong but idrc anymore because its OVER. In bad news, school starts next week :( I like buying notebooks though so that will be good. There's a lot I like about school but also a lot I hate. Not being able to have my headphones / listen to music during class will suck so bad. Anyhow, I wish everyone very juicy and crispy apples.

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8-4-25

Heyo, I've been fixing my ONLINE CD COLLECTION when I should have been STUDYING for my calc test on the 6th. I'm so confused and I do not understand integrals at all ;-; BUT I'm working towards it! Tommorrow will probably be a blocked-off study day where I lock myself in my room for hours until I finish my homework. (help) In other news, today I ate a big huge burger.


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8-3-25

Still trying to figure out how to format all this shit. Also hey that drawing to the left is me! Or, a quick drawing of what I kinda look like anyway. I was compiling a list of albums for my ONLINE CD COLLECTION and couldn't help but feel like none of my music is HARDCORE enough. Not only do I feel like a loser, but also a POSER!!!! Alr, I gotta get back to calculus now ;-;

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8-2-25

Finally started this burrow back up. I've been procrastinating on doing my calculus homework, so returning to this self-inflicted hellhole has been the preferable choice as of late. Last night I went to a show at a semi-local library. I've been there twice before for punk shows, but this one had more shoegaze-esque bands. It was the last show for a band called Disturbia. Each song they played was with a somber yet passionate weight that just buried its way into everyone there, whether they had seen the band before or not. Every song built up to a sort of ambiguous zenith, and the crowd got heavier and more emotional with each downbeat. I've never been one to mosh, but this last show revealed the inner passion everyone in the pit felt stomping, kicking, and punching at no one and everyone at the same time. I guess it was a night of dichotomies in that way. At the end of the set, the front man smashed his guitar against the pavement. The most poetic part to me is the fact that the only proof of it is some blurry photographs- because no one was poised with their camera directed at the band at that moment. It was so unexpected no one got a clear photo or video of it happening. Afterward, the crowd rushed in like it was a pinata to grab different parts of his guitar, each with a piece of that night and of that passion engraved in it I'm sure. Its own little dichotomy.


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What am I playing?
Skate 2007

This game is great to play while watching YouTube or whatever, and its got a killer soundtrack to go with it. I remember giving the controller to my brother to beat the difficult spots when I was younger, and honestly I haven't gotten much better since then. Even so, this game is still loads of fun and has evidently stood the test of time cuz its still cool to play B)