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My name is Miles, I'm 17, and this is my burrow.

I like to study and to stare out the window, usually I'm listening to loud music while doing both. MY ACCOUNT Welcome to my corner of the internet where I hide from the world. Here are some updates
3-20-26

Hello burrow buddies. I finally finished Parable of the Sower. I liked it, but it wasn't my favorite. I felt that there were some religious/cult perspectives that were pushed a bit too much to the point it sounded like Butler not really like Olamina was talking to the audience pushing that ideology.... idk. I also thought it fell a bit short from the perspective of a survival novel- I like to read the nitty gritty details of surviving and I thought that with Lauren's hyperempathy that I would get that sorta writing but it was a lot more vague. Other than that, I think its a product of its time, and that people should give it a read. I hope the second book in the series is better :) In other news, I watched the movie Undertones with my friends. THAT SHIT WAS SO CORNY. Like are you serious the 3:00am bullshit, nursery rhymes backwards, corrupted audio files... give me a break. It was scary as shit tho... the old woman on hospice was scarily realistic tbh. OKAY BYE

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3-12-26

Last night was the best night of my life. I finally got to see dodie in concert. The venue was small but such a vibe, and it felt really good to be so close to the stage: more intimate. I swear we made eye-contact at some points... I cried my eyes out, I laughed, I sang (a lot), I danced, and tried my darndest to soak in the moment. I wrote her a letter which she got at the end which I'm so grateful for, and I bought a CD of nflot and a lighter with Mrs on it :) She and her band are so incredibly talented, and don't even get me started on Andy Louis.. OH MY LORD HES PHENOMENAL! I went with my friend, and even though I stood at the front by myself, I'm so glad she went with me to keep me company.


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3-10-26

Wow its been awhile... Not much has changed, I got into Reed College and UC Davis where I got the Regent's scholarship which is good I think. The other day my friend and I found two abandoned shopping carts by my house, so of course we took them and rode in them and raced and slammed them into eachother. Then we pushed them around town to our friends' houses to show them. fun times.... not many new updates.... bye bye


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2-21-26

Burrowing again. I got into the CHC! hooray I'm smart ig. I love my friends, I love to listen to music, I love to draw and sing. I got burgers with my friends after they performed in our HS's production of Matilda.
Let me just say, In-N-Out is the most poignant example of America's gluttonous entitled gate keeping culture. What a specimen of an establishment, stark white walls, floor, and ceiling interpolated with the almost dread-inducing firetruck red seats that serve to hurt your eyes, hide ketchup spills, and highlight the alienation a customer is meant to feel, a spit of "you're not supposed to stay here." what an inane concept, a fast food chain infamous for its exclusionary principles. Everything is small and tastes like shit unless you know exactly how to order your bullshit to make it edible. Animal style protein wrapped pickle grilled flying kitten tumbleweed upside down banana pepper kill yourself. The fries are like styrofoam unless you get them well-done, once again denying the lower-class plebes of society unable to infiltrate the horrid In-N-Out culture (one defined by niche esotericism and non verbal communication) the joy of some god dammed fries. The chain is the height of what it means to be a part of the "in crowd." Those privy to the mysterious ways of the kitchen (and the secrets hidden in the dumbass paper boat hats) are able to revel in the shared joy of knowing how to get extra sauce packets, while those locked out of the culture are forced to squabble in their dry-yet-too-greasy sad excuses for burgers. Tourists line up for miles waiting to get a taste of the unattainable, feeling as if they are a part of something larger, a lie we tell ourselves to justify their 2:00am close time and tantalizing appeal to teenaged California kids.



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2-9-26

Wazzup. I wrote like two updates but then updated Chrome without saving so SORRY. I won two medals in acadec, a perfect score in Speech, and bronze overall in my category. Our team overall didn't do great, we didn't even place top 7... BUT ITS OK because I got eat with everyone after and I think all the newbies had a good time. I'm sick rn unfortunately, and I just got off of being sick so ig the Universe has it out for me. On Saturday I went to one of my very best friend's 18th birtday, which was so cute and loads of fun, and Sunday I went to my friend's house to practice dancing for her debut. A debut is like a quinceañera but at 18yo for filipinas. Then we all watched the half-time performance and went upstairs where we watched Falsettos. In even more other news, I've started nature journaling, practicing driving more, and I'm almost done with Parable of the Sower.



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1-30-26

Hello all. Alastair passed away. It's been a very rough few days. He was beautiful in his passing and I'm going to miss him so so much. I got into University of Oregon with a scholarship which is an upside! annnddd, tomorrow is acadec speech/interview/superquiz which I'm nervous for but mainly excited about. In other news, my school literally got a bomb threat, and that with the ICE strike today, there's hardly anyone at school. I'm literally in class with four other people rn.

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1-26-26

HEY! Lots to update here. I finished the ACADEC 7 tests! It was a good day full of tests, food, and friends! I think I did alright but really only time will tell. I also went to Berkeley with a friend of mine which was a blast. What's been on my mind this week is Alastair. If you don't know, that's my pet chameleon. He has been getting skinnier and skinnier, and he has stopped eating or drinking. Recently, he hasn't been moving and is just hanging on a branch. I've been considering a vet visit so I'll keep y'all posted. Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers.



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1-21-26

wattup. I added Sudoku to this site for fun, took some trial and error but I hope someone enjoys it... I just watched the movie Primate w my friends and we laughed so much oh my lord. There was like 5 other people in there max, and so we were hootin' and hollerin'. One guy did turn around all mad but he should just lighten up. In other news, AP Gov is kicking my butt, I feel so dumb trying to read legal jargon. TTYL peace.

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1-18-26

HELL-o fellow burrowers, I thought the day would never come, but I am officially applied to college! That's right I submitted my applications and now that stress is (mostly) over. There was also the acadec official essay this week, which I think I did alright on. It was a blessing bc I was hella sick taking it. I have a bunch of AP Gov work to do, but instead I'm on the 'puter. Halfway done with Parable of the Sower, owned all the first spots on Skate (2007).

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1-11-26

First update of the new year. I am actually kind of sick rn which is horrible because tomorrow is my first day back at school. Like, I had three weeks to be sick and my immune system chooses now? Seriously? In other news, college apps are FAST approaching and I'm shitting myself over it, I haven't memorized my speech for acadec which is UH OH, and I haven't studied AP Gov at all so I may be cooked. I can't really complain, though, because one of my biggest struggles is how to place stickers on my computer,,, there are harder things to face. This weekend I hung out with my friends a lot, and got to pet SO MANY CATS. I LOVE CATS. I also got to play some songs weith my band, and I have new songs to learn which is pretty challenging but I'm also really looking forward to it! I want to include a letter to my end-of-year-self so,, here it is:

Dear 2027 me, Heyo! hopefully if the world hasn't exploded yet this burrow is still up and you have remembered to update it. In my head, you are in your dorm, or maybe you're visiting home over winter break? But either way I hope you're at UofO and that your major is fun and that you have made friends and are taking cool classes. I wonder if you are climbing! I hope you are, or at least going on hikes. I hope your exams went well, that you still talk to your friends you have right now, that you got better at guitar, that you're going to cool shows etc. What kind of new music do you listen to? What is pissing you off rn? Are your bedsheets plaid... many questions... I hope everyone is healthy, I hope Alastair,,, is okay in lizard heaven? Don't beat yourself up about it, you're doing the best you can. I hope that you are not too anxious, and that you are being mindful. I hope your style is better and/or that your hair is long. Everything will be okay, I love you, catch you on the flip, - 2026 me



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12-31-25

Its the last Burrow update of the year... so how am I feeling? This year was a lot. For the good: I played in a band! I listened to so much more amazing music, some of it even live during the most fun shows of my life, I watched beutiful movies and even better TV shows, I read wonderful books and short stories and poems and in summary just got to experience so much wonderful art. I am so happy I got the energy to start this burrow again, that I won the awards I did for academics, volunteering, and for art. I am so grateful my family has been largely healthy and happy and have been supportive of these accomplishments. I'm grateful for every new T-shirt, sticker, punchline, new friend, text message, and card I've got this year. I'm glad Alastair (my pet chameleon) has made it another year! I'm glad to have painted an oil painting, applied to colleges, taken 3 AP exams and got 5s, I GOT TO TRAVEL! I went to Oregon. I GOT TO LEARN CALCULUS??? I know I complained but isn't that such a wonderful problem to have? I went to a reptile show, I went to state competition! I did so many really cool things. The bad: I had a pretty bad depressive episode at the beginning of the year, followed by a breakup and breakdown that turned the world upside down for a minute. My grandfather passed away, my mom's friend passed, politics have been flushed down the toilet. But, even so, I have picked myself up everytime and have seen the beautiful, bright, wonderous life waiting for me on the other side. I am so excited and so scared for this next year, graduting, going off to college, it's all very uncharted territory. Through it, I hope o keep using this place as a little blog to sort out my thoughts, and I hope you (whatever creature of the net is passing by) will continue to read it! Happy New Year! See ya in 2026.
RESOLUTIONS:
+ Actually practice guitar
+ Draw more!
+ Update the Burrow to be even cooler
+ Go to more shows
+ learn to drive / get my license
+ Do things scared
+ get swole

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12-26-25

...heyyyyy. Sorry for being gone forever, especially after leaving off on such a dark note. I'm wishing a merry christmas to all who celebrate and a happy winter solstice to those who don't, and a splendid whatever else if you're in the southern hemisphere. I had a good christmas with family and friends. I got a proper fancy laptop! which means I will probably update this burrow more but no promises. Its funny seeing how I am consistantly stressed about the same things (college essays) every time I update, but tbh it checks out. Since I've been gone I have finished my finals with As (!), finished my oil painting, ripped a hole in my pants, and have not finished Parable of the Sower yet. Will update soon, have a good day/night you creature of the web.

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11-25-25

Hello world! I'm gonna get dark for a minute. I have a form of OCD that causes me to pick at my arms. It might not sound that bad, but its particularly bad right now and my arms are all swollen and bleeding. IN OTHER NEWS college essays are hard to write, hands are hard to draw, leb reports are hard to finish, jeans are hard to break in, knowing the right thing to say is hard, talking to new friends is hard. "Read books. Care about things. Get excited. Try not to be too down on yourself. Enjoy the ever present game of knowing." - Hank Green

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11-23-25

Hello from my burrow. I did start reading Parable of the Sower and I'm liking it so far, very gruesome. I spent an abhorrent amount of money on Dodie tickets this week. I think it will be worth it though. In other news, I've been working on college applications but I'm so stuck in my own head about the whole thing. Writing usually comes easy to me, but I'm a perfectionist.

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11-16-25

HELLO..... This week a family friend passed away. It's been hard to deal when the house feels heavy with grief. In other news, I'm still feeling lonely. I have been spending the weekend trying to own the very last spot I need on the map in Skate 2007. Its "Bomb the Bank" and OH MY LORD its so difficult. I don't know what I'm doing wrong, and there's only like two tutorials online so its trial and error for now. I love how the weather is getting colder now. My friends and I took a hike up a local trail and played guitar at sunset. 1000/10 recommend. My friend and I also went to test how far his radio transmitter reaches, so we drove around to our random friends' houses to use their outlets with a small radio we had. Turns out the transmitter can reach pretty far!


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11-9-25

NO GREETING TODAY FUCK YOU. I added some buttons to the left, I hope they are COOL!!!! Most of them don't link to anything but the first one links to my neocities profile so you can find your way back! or to my acct if you came from somewhere else.... I have work I need to be doing rn but I'm not doing it because I don't even know why. I'm going to start reading Parable of the Sower by Octavia E. Butler and I hope updating about it on here will keep my accountable so stay tuned for that. Alr... catch you on the flip.

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11-8-25

Hey! My friend bought a radio transmitter and I got my radio antenna to work finally so I've been jamming to his music lol. If anyone I know IRL is reading this, tune into FM 88.00 bc he's playing bangers! Well, don't tell him this but some of it is too, like, whiney for my taste. (Still love you bro) Today I did my FAFSA application, but now I'm stressing over the writing supplements bc time is running out and they are not polished yet or even completely done :/ In other news, Neocities is working on my computer again! And, I got my DS charger back from my brother so I can finally charge my 3DS ;-; Not that anyone cares, but lately I've been feeling so unfunny and lame and socially inept. I wish I could just act like a normal person but NOPE!!! Please leave a comment on my neocities profile if anyone is reading this,,, OH HE'S PLAYING BLACK FLAG NOW okay its getting a little better.....

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11-1-25

Heyo. I was meaning to update this earlier but neocities ain't working on my laptop so I'm literally doing this on my phone rn. HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! I had a good Halloween with my friends, I like getting out of the house sometimes. Can I be fr for a min? I'm so sick of labels. Like why debate over if something is Krautrock over "experimental German post-pre wave musique concrete" like if I like it just let me listen to it?? Like why can't people be bi-curious anymore? Why I gotta be so definitive abt it yk? I'm me bro let me be me. Tbh, it makes me sad when I open my phone and the only notifications I have are from Gmail and, like, Netflix. That feels shallow but idec anymore. Some people told me that I come off as mean and that they think I'm mad at them or don't like them which makes me feel bad bc like I'm literally just a guy. Like I don't try to be mean but that's just how I come off ig. Well,,, that's it for now I guess.

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10-21-25

Hello internet. Nothing is new. Well, I performed with my band at my school. My band and I did great, but the solo act I did was honestly kinda ass. I need to study more for the Academic Decathlon bc I haven't locked it. Still working on college apps, wish it felt more like autumn, still being loud and annoying see yall later.

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10-8-25

I know its been forever. For some reason I assumed that I would be able to update this place during school, but of course Neocities is blocked on my school's WiFi so here we are. Not a lot has been going on, I don't feel very motivated to do any schoolwork which sucks because I need to lock in. I've been working on college applications, so I guess thats a step in the right direction. Its strange writing essays and stuff. It feels like no matter how well I write or how hard I work I'm so nervous that its not good enough. I feel like I have so many things to say that can't fit in 650 words. The weather is just starting to turn cooler here in California. I need it to be cold NOW! Wind makes me feel alive, makes me feel like me. In other news, I've been reading Frankenstein for my AP Lit class, and its so poignant. I think its interesting how someone from so long ago can capture the way I feel now so accurately. Chapter 9 in particular really stuck with me- I would have cried if I wasn't in class. Did you know that I am an akward mess? I feel like 90% of the time I'm a really interesting person with talents and a tired attitude- but when it comes time to interact with people all of that goes out the window. I laugh too loud, make dumb jokes, I'm mean when I don't mean to be. I don't know how to be a normal person.

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9-6-25

I have no excuse for being gone for so long but... I'M BACK! Lately I've learned that I look at people weird (apparently) I have 3 tests on Monday and it's literally like the third week of school so like whats up with that? Not much is new, I don't study as much as I should. I'm in the process of fixing up all of the images on this site but they looks worse now so just hold your horses.

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8-15-25

First (sorta) week of school DONE! I am officially free from the shackles of AP Spanish because I transfered out (praise be). I don't like soda but in celebration I had an ice cold glass of sugar free cherry Pepsi. I felt connected to Mike Muir in that one Suicidal Tendencies song. I make a fool out of myself every waking moment I exist. If you're reading this, I'm sorry for being so LAME!!!!!!!!

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8-13-25

Why the FUCK did I sign up for AP Spanish? literally what possesed me I don't know. If I stop updating it very well may be because I killed myself due to this class. If you can't tell, today was the first day of my senior year. All of my classes seem fine so far apart from AP Spanish, but its 1st period so at least I get it out of the way first thing. I'm already tired. It's too hot outside.

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8-10-25

Yesterday I went to my epic friend Anika's BIRTHDAY BASH. It was nice to hang out with some of my friends before school starts. (friends meaning like two people) I always relish being able to eat at my filipino friends' houses because I get to eat filipino food that I don't get at my extremely white home. Towards the end of the party I found myself having a better time because my friend started talking to me about some of my writing, but then we gathered a crowd and I got overwhelmed. I much prefer talking in smaller groups rather than larger ones when it comes to personal things like that. Afterward two of my friends and I went to see Weapons at the last showing around midnight. I was a lot more scared than I'd like to admit. I wish I were better at interpreting themes and messages, but I enjoy listening to other, more educated on the matter, people talk about films. I'm a fan of horror, but since I have anxiety I try to dose things like jumpscares infrequently. I'd much rather read about cryptozoology or some Lovecraft. I heart Twisted Teas btw, I wanted like three more of these. I like the way they make my chest feel.


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8-6-25

CALCULUS IS OVER FOREVER NOW. Glad to announce order is set back into the world because I finished my calc final today. I know I got like three questions wrong but idrc anymore because its OVER. In bad news, school starts next week :( I like buying notebooks though so that will be good. There's a lot I like about school but also a lot I hate. Not being able to have my headphones / listen to music during class will suck so bad. Anyhow, I wish everyone very juicy and crispy apples.

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8-4-25

Heyo, I've been fixing my ONLINE CD COLLECTION when I should have been STUDYING for my calc test on the 6th. I'm so confused and I do not understand integrals at all ;-; BUT I'm working towards it! Tommorrow will probably be a blocked-off study day where I lock myself in my room for hours until I finish my homework. (help) In other news, today I ate a big huge burger.


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8-3-25

Still trying to figure out how to format all this shit. Also hey that drawing to the left is me! Or, a quick drawing of what I kinda look like anyway. I was compiling a list of albums for my ONLINE CD COLLECTION and couldn't help but feel like none of my music is HARDCORE enough. Not only do I feel like a loser, but also a POSER!!!! Alr, I gotta get back to calculus now ;-;

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8-2-25

Finally started this burrow back up. I've been procrastinating on doing my calculus homework, so returning to this self-inflicted hellhole has been the preferable choice as of late. Last night I went to a show at a semi-local library. I've been there twice before for punk shows, but this one had more shoegaze-esque bands. It was the last show for a band called Disturbia. Each song they played was with a somber yet passionate weight that just buried its way into everyone there, whether they had seen the band before or not. Every song built up to a sort of ambiguous zenith, and the crowd got heavier and more emotional with each downbeat. I've never been one to mosh, but this last show revealed the inner passion everyone in the pit felt stomping, kicking, and punching at no one and everyone at the same time. I guess it was a night of dichotomies in that way. At the end of the set, the front man smashed his guitar against the pavement. The most poetic part to me is the fact that the only proof of it is some blurry photographs- because no one was poised with their camera directed at the band at that moment. It was so unexpected no one got a clear photo or video of it happening. Afterward, the crowd rushed in like it was a pinata to grab different parts of his guitar, each with a piece of that night and of that passion engraved in it I'm sure. Its own little dichotomy.

photo creds: @40.oz.photography_ on instagram
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What am I playing?
Skate 2007

This game is great to play while watching YouTube or whatever, and its got a killer soundtrack to go with it. I remember giving the controller to my brother to beat the difficult spots when I was younger, and honestly I haven't gotten much better since then. Even so, this game is still loads of fun and has evidently stood the test of time cuz its still cool to play B)

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